Now it hits me!

The past couple of days have been really weird for me. Last thursday, i had a dream and in that dream, i was saying goodbye to Rama. Last night, man, my dream was really emotional that i woke up.....crying! yes, you read that right, i was crying. My dream was, again, saying goodbye to Rama. I think that i've been having these dreams because i really was just acting all cool and stuff when they were leaving. You know, no biggie. I mean, one of my best friends left for China, and it was cool. Sad, yes, but nothing emotional. So when ate poch and rama were leaving, again, sad, but nothing really emotional. but i guess you can't hide from your subconsious mind.

I think my last dream was caused by a lot of things that reminded me and my wife of rama. earlier that night, we went to shopwise to buy loads of unhealthy stuff to devour on. and while we were stralling on the aisles, we saw a Cinderella dress for sale. exactly the one she has! so again, me and pepper started remeniscing about how great a child she is. then when we got home, i went online and one of my fave sites is ate poch's blogsite. finally there was something new to read. when i read her most recent blog, i laughed as usual, but at the same time, i pictured them in the plane and i also felt sad. so there, i went to sleep and i dreamt that we were still saying goodbye to ate poch and rama.

Why is rama so memorable and important to me and pepper? Yes, she is very beautiful and charming, especially when you see her in person, but what really made us love her is the fact that she is not your typical kid. why do i say that? its because she's not the usual kid who, especially in her age, would throw in a fit if she doesnt get what she wants. she's very respectful and when you say something, she respects it. i dont even remember hearing the word NO from her. she's always saying "okay" even when you know that it breaks her heart to say it. Trust me, ive been around kids and ive never seen any kid like that. she has a really great sense of humour and would even pull off a prank on us. actually, there are so many things that you cant list everything down. all im saying is, she made me believe that kids can be cute but at the same time be very respectful also. its a tough combination to find.

i commend the people around her for making her that way. pepper and i will be striving to make sure that our kid be like that also. I hope rama stays the same. 2 years, if ever we're lucky, is a long time before we get to see her again. we just hope she doesnt forget us, coz we sure wouldnt forget her! even for just a little under two years that she was here, she has touched our lives so dearly. and i think, everyone who were fortunate enough to know her, feels the same way.

The pic on top was from our despedida for rama and ate poch. The pic on the right is the last pic i have with rama which we took before we headed for the airport.